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Autism, Autobots, and Autopoiesis

When I was young, I was obsessed with Transformers. I loved the cartoons, but I was particularly engrossed by the Michael Bay movies' designs and transformations. There is a profound tactile satisfaction to be found in the chaotic yet constructive shuffling of parts. The coherency of form is scrambled into nonsense, which then amazingly converges back into coherency, but of a different form.

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My favorite FNaF characters are Mangle and Ennard. The concept of the take-apart-and-put-back-together animatronic reaches deep into my soul, especially when not taken-apart by the other, but by the self, the chaotic reconstruction of the body, by the body. Molten Freddy could be a favorite as well, had he been executed better; the aesthetics of FNaF1 radiating from a shifting molten tangle of robotic limbs.

While Ennard is manipulative and intelligent, giving the "always thinking" impression associated with the Puppet, Mangle and Molten are mindless creatures, "like animals". Mangle is a network of rigid limbs, while Ennard and Molten are bundles of snake-like wires. Ennard is shaped as a tightly knotted humanoid, Mangle a 3-legged predator, and Molten Freddy a formless amalgam, a puddle. All of these distinctions fascinate me.

Patricia Taxxon (autistic) has described furryness as "The symbolic, the sensory, and the ever so slightly autistic".

"I was treated like a failed human my entire life, and you're surprised that my response was to become a dog?"

In one of N0THANKY0U's 12-hour nichijou-kei podcasts, he (also autistic) comments on Patricia's video, extending the concept of austism as identification with the inhuman to the machine.

Today, I (also autistic) am fascinated by form more abstractly, by system and structure, the emergence of organization, the Deleuzian deterritorialization and reterritorialization, the construction and deconstruction of coherency and chaos, the fluid, autopoietic structure of the animal and the digital, decoupled structure of the machine.

Inside you there are two wolves (both autistic). The animalistic and the machinic. Both Five Nights at Freddy's and (sometimes) Transformers present a fascinating synthesis of these two qualities, on the level of structure and texture as well as behavior.